I am here to tell you about how a doula transformed my life…Read More
I do not share because I am ashamed
I do not share because I feel guilt
I do not share because nothing will change
I do not share because I am nothingRead More
How can I walk two paths?
How can I honor myself, but be the mother I feel my children deserve?Read More
Pregnancy felt like an in-between state – a journey that had yet to reach its destination. And as I walked this journey, I was experiencing myself change. Past experiences were coming back to me with fresh power and taking on new meanings.
It felt strange to have a little person growing inside me, so connected and yet also, somehow, so far away. Who was I in this new body of mine? Who were they?
I look at you my little one and I grieve over what is about to come. Any day now your little brother will enter this world. While I am so happy to meet him, it scares me to think about how this will change you; change us.Read More
When I was pregnant with my first I wondered a lot about what labor would be like. Would I be able to handle the pain of contractions? Would I choose an epidural? At the same time, I was feeling overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of what was about to happen and anxious about all the unknowns of parenthood.Read More
…there are huge benefits to taking an in-person childbirth education class with a certified childbirth educator. You just can't get these 10 benefits from going down the google rabbit hole:Read More
There are moments that creep up on us, holding a mirror to what we are not ready to bear witness to. Music is a powerful tool, and often gives voice to these emotions. Driving today in the car, tears streamed down my face as these lyrics reflected parts of me that I haven’t been able to put words to myself.Read More
…you've done this before. You knew what to expect - the sleepless nights, the constant feeding, the bouncing and jiggling - you expected challenge, maybe even postnatal depression or anxiety, but you are still surprised, surprised by the stillness of your newborn.Read More
I had expected to come from the When Survivors Give Birth Workshop in Seattle with an overload of information to share. Instead, I find myself lost for words.Read More
This is me, almost ten years ago, teaching how to write an essay to an undergraduate class. Its been a long journey from this moment - a journey that includes the birth of my two babies, a Ph.D. and the start of a new career in providing trauma-informed childbirth education and parenting support.Read More
Today…What can I say about today? Today, emotionally draining as it has been, has only reinforced my commitment to helping survivors in the perinatal period. Today, I spoke to medical care providers and other perinatal professionals about my experience giving birth as a survivor of rape.Read More
Conceiving, growing, birthing, and raising tiny humans can be a difficult journey.Read More
I was pregnant with my first when my mother told me, “When you have a newborn, you are all they know - you are their world. Newborns only begin to know the world beyond you through you.Read More
Everything changed after the birth of my two children, one in 2014 and one in 2017Read More